Frozen mother moment

I am feeling the after-effects of the BIG FREEZE we had in the UK - my gut feels frozen, my fingers, my thoughts, my self-motivation et al - a delayed reaction considering the ice has all thawed and we had a surprisingly warm-ish week between Xmas and New Year.

I am forcing the wheels in my mind to move ...creaaak..ccreeeeaakkk - my fingers are not having any trouble keeping up at the moment, even in their numbed state. Spewing out my thoughts will cheer me up, but why oh why are they are not even a trickle yet??

"Delete and run" is the message my brain is shouting out - "you have nothing to say"...

"Go easy on yourself hon", my heart says. "Gently does it...."

It's crossroads time - be overwhelmed and cry or sing a silly song and smile......
Hey girl, being a mother, and a full-time one at that, is all about being overwhelmed - overwhelmed by tiredness many times, by frustration on rare occasions, by guilt when you feel you are not doing enough...... but through it all, the most overwhelming sensation is this immeasurable love that hits you - wave after wave - even when you want it to stop for a minute so you can get a break from always always wanting to do your very best for your child - ALL THE TIME.

"Sing.. sing a song.. make it simple to last your while life long....
Don't worry that its not good enough
For anyone else to hear
Just sing.. sing a song.." - Carpenters......

So what now... keep singing - song after song .. keep typing - word after word....

And some minutes later (I'll spare you the list of songs I went through), I suddenly realise how silly I'm being... being overwhelmed by love ain't a thing to moan about, now is it!! Heehhee haahaaaa........... So what if I sometimes feel exhausted from stretching higher for Kee all the time, so what if I feel I can't keep up sometimes - that's motherhood baby!!! you know what I'm sayin' ............ I am blessed to be a mother and THAT is the bottom line. Smile - it all makes sense....

Thank you Kee.

And Happy New Year to you and me!!!