This moment

The kids are in bed, husband away on work, dishwasher loaded.... a million more things on my "to do" list...but it is one of those very rare, and therefore precious, moments filled with peace...

So I choose to savour it with a mug of steaming hot, deliciously spiced herbal tea.. feel the warm liquid travelling joyously down my throat.... listen to the clock ticking... actually pause to feel and listen to my breath... close my eyes... ..

Open them again to carry on typing... hug this moment close to me filled with gratitude for all my blessings.... I do my fair share of moaning in life...but not now.......

This moment is for celebrating the joy that is my life.

This moment is to enjoy the overwhelming love expanding within me and flowing outwards.

This moment is for dancing with the positive energy of love and life.

This moment is for realising that all I need to do is have more and more of these moments... more and more and more until they lightly brush against each other like bubbles filled with the colours of the rainbow....

After all, life is..... this moment.

Maybe that's me too

I remember reading a book called "One" by Richard Back years ago and have a vague memory of it being about parallel realities and choices.

The choices I have made at various points in my life have led me here in this reality. But what if there are many Priti(s) existing on parallel planes at the same time - in different scenarios and roles based on different choices and paths taken at each crossroad... hmmmmmmmm...... how gobsmackingly cool is that!!

What are the parallel "me's" doing?

One is a healer for sure - not a doctor per se...... oh no... something way more exciting- maybe even a witch specialising in herbs, natural remedies and embracing the magic of the Universe.... now I know why I love the witches and fairies make-believe games Kee and I play ;-)

The Priti who pursued intellectual challenges may now be a genius mathematician - the modern female Da Vinci, dabbling in art and science ... he he he... if wishes were horses and pigs could fly..............Maybe Priti is a writer, a musician, a vagabond, a mechanic, a farmer, a chef, a businesswoman, a daredevil stuntwoman ooooooooh yes.... Infinite possibilities and realities......... liberating!

Makes me smile... one thing I do know - like this Priti, every parallel me is learning new and exciting stuff. Right now, this "me" is learning to understand what it may be like to relax and go with the flow - to trust life and accept all new experiences as a gift on this exciting journey... yeeeeehaw... let's ride baby!

Grey matter

Short on time tonight, so will get straight to the point -  Growing older has its perks. Oh yes, it does too!  As I was looking for something to read tonight, I came across something that hit home right away. Wham! It literally knocked the breath out of me.  "Truth is best served by recognizing a viewpoint as only a viewpoint, and refraining from taking that extra step of regarding it as true to the exclusion of all other views. In other words, all views—even correct views—are best held gently, rather than grasped firmly." I have been guilty of wanting the world to see some things my way and dealt with disappointment when my goldmine was not regarded as hot property by all and sundry. The classic "how can you not see what I see here" syndrome - to the point of turning a cold shoulder on a handful of very dear people in my life.  Time, and some other very dear and wiser souls, have slowly made me realise that everyone's viewpoint is correct from where they stand, based on life experiences, upbringing, etc.  I am learning to laugh at my earlier zeal.  My convictions are still strong and I stand by them. But I now see the wisdom of going about things quietly and, hopefully as still more time goes by, with grace.  Total gratitude happening here - to all those people and moments (even the ones with the bitter aftertaste) - for bringing me where I am and teaching me the true meaning of tolerance and acceptance.  Heavy stuff eh? And I have paid the price - more than a few grey on this hothead ;-) - Maybe I should give up on hair colour and display the grey matter with pride. Yeah right!..... like I am ready to give up the right to a little vanity....hah! Wisdom in small doses please.....

The 'web' of my life

Here I am on a monday night - there is a long list of things I HAVE to do before I go to bed and my almost 6-month old is teething with a runny nose and fever AND hubby is away - going by last night's example, there will be night wakings galore - so why am I HERE on Monday night insted of speedily zipping through the "have-to-be-done's"??

It's just one of those evenings - my moment of being compelled to share from within and as I start typing, I have no clue what that sharing even is......

In the last four years, life has taken me down completely new and unexpected avenues - each time, I make a decision that goes against the norm, I have several moments of panic, wondering if I am equipped to do what I am setting out to do......... but somewhere underneath that layer of chaotic and nervous thoughts, there must be an ingrained faith that I have been blissfully unaware of - a belief deep down that the tools for the job will find their way to me. Why else would I make decisions which would seem crazy, not only to most people I know, but even to the "me" I was a few years ago?

My latest fear was my inadequacy to be organised and methodical enough to take on homeschooling my girls. I will not go into the "why on earth would I do that" aspect of this - it is a long and mostly joyous journey that brought hubby and me to that decision. And it is wholly stimulating, exciting and rewarding... but naturally, quite scary too.

Coming back to the point, the tools have arrived, as they usually do, sometimes sooner and sometimes later. Sometimes, they are already here and it just takes me a while to realise that.

Most of the time, I have found solutions, only thanks to hitting that search button on google over and over.

For a person who does not consider herself very tech-savvy, I have a lot to thank the internet for. After all, I would be living a very different life if hubby and I hadn't found each other on shaadi.com ;)

So, I guess this post is my thanksgiving to the land of computing.

Here's to faith, technology and the 'web' of my life - Cheers!
All izz well.